Anchor For My Soul

I woke up this morning feeling irritable, something I have attributed to some side effects of a new medicine I have been taking. Throughout the day though, it came and went until I stopped, and realized what was going on.

I was letting my mood ruin my outlook on life, and my attitude towards others. 

So I sat, read my Bible for a bit and turned on some good music for my soul. With Jeremy Riddle singing "How He Loves" playing through my earphones in the library now, I feel so much better, and on the way to being cheerful and relaxed again.

It hit me though - "What am I filling my life with?"

There is so much to be thankful for and joyful about every day, and I will not always feel that way despite that being a constant truth. And yet, the thoughts that I continually feed will eventually be the ones that take over my life.

Humbled then, here I am again choosing to stop the tangent of my negativity and let the peace of God flood my spirit. I put on thankfulness, joy and goodness over my life. And just like that.. my day has become so much better. :)

I am so blessed by the every day lessons He is teaching me. :)

Love,
Dice

Ignite It

Was reminded this week that I have some stubbornly passionate people in my life, and of the incredible honour and joy it is to do life alongside them. :)

Nothing Like Your Presence

"How can I stand here with You, and not be moved by You?"

Keep On Keeping On

"I went outside and just talked to God, sat on the bench, lay on the floor, stared at the trees and skies. Then I read my Bible and came across Psalm 139, a favourite. And when I came to "even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you", the sun immediately came out behind the clouds and shone brighter than ever. 

It was just a really beautiful moment, and I felt like God was saying He would always shine His light around me."

- February 2010

In the midst of procrasti-read-old-journals-ing in the library, I found this, from 3 1/2 years ago. I read through some prayers I said all that time ago too.

He really does listen, doesn't He?

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I am so amazed by how far we have come together Papa God. From the little girl that used to go to church with her pink lunch-box bag routinely on Sundays to the almost-an-adult (in 3 months!) now who has bigger life issues to think about and conversations with You about the adventures we are heading towards.. it's so surreal. Where did all that time go?

Thank You for keeping Your promises to me even through all the years. :) 

And when the moments come where I may feel discouraged, I know now that I just have to look back, reflect on how far we've journeyed hand in hand and KNOW that you are always going to be faithful.

As I continue to walk in the footsteps that 16-year-old me would never have even dreamed of, I can believe that 26-year-old me will be one day doing the same too. From glory to glory. :)

Love,
Dice

Moved

Held Tight; Carried Through

I drove home tonight deep in thought, and realized that it had been quite a while since I last spoke to God in my car. When God told me that this would be a season of stretching and struggling through that would grow me.. I didn't expect things to get so challenging. I didn't expect to need Him so much.

And yet, on that dark and quiet drive home, I heard Him tell me to turn on the radio, and that He would speak to me from there. 

So I did, and a song I didn't particularly like came on. 

"Hmm.. guess I heard wrong then."

I kept thinking, and slowly felt God push my thoughts toward Him, toward the way of His heart. Then, I understood, and I felt that peace come back into my life ever so gently. 

And the very next moment.. this song - "Let It Be Love" came on the radio.

Tears welled up in my eyes as I knew that I knew that I knew... that my God really is watching out for me. I truly am held so tight in His arms and carried through anything and everything. The promise of the upright is peace, and because of what Jesus did for me, that is the promise over my life. Because I have been shown grace, I can show grace.

"He set my feet upon the rock" / "He has turned my mourning into dancing" / "Though he falls, he will not be utterly cast down as the hand of the Lord shall uphold him" / "I will lie down and sleep in perfect peace"

Even this God-suggested 45 days of Psalms project has been such a blessing to me for finally, these promises that I have been reading are getting cemented into my spirit by experience.

No matter what comes my way in the future, I am certain, that I am and will always be, held tight and carried through.

My God is so, so faithful. 

Learning to love like Christ,

Dice

The Struggle Is Good For Me

"For someone who preaches about My Presence as much as you do, it's time for you to see if that truly is enough to carry you through."

In every area of my life, the struggle to keep going and excel is priceless for my growth.

I am strengthened as I struggle through. 

#Selah

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Now if only I can feel the same way about Health Economics.

Love,
Dice