A Holy Moment

I loved today.

Today, was a soak-in-His-amazing-presence-and-be-overwhelmed-by-the-overflow-of-grace-and-love-and-cry-without-caring-about-my-makeup-running kind of day.

I am so so blessed to be generously spoiled by Him like that today. :)

Cause The Truth Is..

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I'm terrified of what 2013 will bring. 

Bye

Leaving KL now with a heavy heart. Maybe it's just cause I'm at KLIA this time around. Maybe it's because everything's going to be different this year. Maybe, it's because it's time to grow up.

Maybe, I've just grown to love both places and their people so much more.

I miss you already.

Let You In On A Secret

Everytime I see a coconut tree now, I think of PNG, and remember how I felt when we went to that very first village.

Resolutions Continued

Here are some things I can cross off since 2013 began..

Walked through a paddy field - Check!
Carried a 5kg Tenggiri fish - Check!
Cut a rambutan off a tree using a long bladed stick - Check!
Stepped into muddy beach water with connections to the Klang River - Check!
Visited the National Palace - Check!
Ate my first roti tisu - Check!

And so, resolved:
To never fear the pursuit of new experiences.
To believe Malaysia to be a beautiful place even if opposed by many.
To learn and practice the courage to talk to people I have never known about life, and about how to make fishing nets.
To make time for people.

And mostly..

To never stop being so hungry for life.

"Let's go crazy crazy crazy and live while we're young."
- One Direction

Love,
Dice

Resolution

I've been thinking about my resolutions for this year. Sure there are the usual - know and love God more, pray more, study harder, lose weight, be a good daughter, sister and friend etc. But just as I had a theme for last year, I've been wondering what my 2013 should be all about.

As I sat on the train back yesterday from KL Central, I got to spend some time with God. Train rides have always captivated me so, perhaps it is because I am moving even though I am still. I heard this in my spirit:

Everywhere my foot treads is my inheritance.

That is what my 2013 is going to be about. Claiming the promises of God over my life and claiming the promises in the Bible that we can do even greater things for Christ, that we can see the blind eyes open and the sick people healed. This year, I am going to have more faith than ever that everywhere I go, I carry Him, and because of that lives will be changed, people will be set free, and chains will be broken. It is no coincidence that I begin my clinicals this year too, because I refuse to walk around a hospital full of sick people defeated. I believe in my Father in Heaven's furious love, one that is willing to move for His people through His willing servants. This year, I will believe that my prayers carry more significance that I ever realized.

I have always been a firm believer though, that if you ask God for something long enough and patiently enough, He'll give it to you. As I ponder upon 2012, a year that I first thought carried so many unanswered prayers and unfulfilled promises, I see His hand upon me and the subtle favour that I had been living in all along.

One of my sisters had been struggling with a skin condition for years now, and it really bothered her. I had been praying and believing for a supernatural healing, that she would one day wake up and see she had been completely healed. I received prophetic promises for it from other people too. Yet, through the year, I got no such news. Then one day, as I was struggling through something, I prayed to receive something encouraging, and right that instant, I got a whatsapp image from her, a picture of her almost clear skin from the new medications she had been taking. I had mixed feelings then, because my promise didn't come to pass as I thought it would, although I was obviously happy for her. I got rebuked a few days later though. Haha, it's so Him. He said "If you don't believe in Me working through medicine, then why are you studying what you do?"

That's a pretty personal story for me that I debated sharing here for a while, but I remember God saying once "Tell your stories, cause they speak not of you but of Me."

And one more things about 2013, I'm not going to just live in the testimonies of yesterday anymore. I'm gonna start believing for fresh testimonies every day, that in time I will see miracles happen every where I go. And when that happens, I promise, I'll tell you my stories as often as I can. :)

"Every place on which the sole of your foot treads will be yours, from the wilderness and Lebanon,from the river, the River Euphrates and even to the Western Sea, shall be your territory."
- Deteronomy 11:24

Hopeful,
Dice

Some More Stories

"What is the life you want? You choose it with every breath."
- Jon Foreman

I spent my first week of 2013 in back to back vacations across Malaysia, from Sitiawan, Perak, to Johor and Malacca. I have loved staring outside the window towards my Creator's masterpiece, of mountains in the distance, trees standing strong and an overwhelming sense of beauty and serenity. I am thankful to have begun the year in such a way, just so in love with life, and life all around me.

Sitiawan is a small town I never knew existed till living with a housemate from that area. I loved being able to escape the city life for a bit though, the cars, the tight spaces, to see things like rubber trees, rambutan trees and how people make kompiangs and be amazed. There is something about small towns and the lives of people with simpler lifestyles that moves me in captivation. And today, I had this thought, that God will use anything around me to remind me of the call and purpose He has designed into my heart. Even a spontaneous trip to a little town in Perak. :)

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With a new year, comes the risk of comparison. As I move and think about where I stand and where I want to be this time next year, I find myself falling into that trap. I find myself comparing with others who have been more successful than me in various areas. Yet, in a moment of surrender today, I realised that it's okay to lose sometimes, because it is far better to lose the battle and win the war. In running alongside people and looking at their race, I have forgotten to keep my eyes on my race alone, at the pace and timing that He has determined for me. And to lose sight of my passions, my heart, the experiences I have been generously blessed with, all because it seemingly did not match up to that of those around me, that would have been a real pity.

The only truth I need to know is this - that God makes everything beautiful in His own time. :)

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I leave you with this, a random picture of me holding my prized reward that I cut off the tree with a massively long stick thing. This reminds me that there are beautiful adventures out there, seeking people  who are brave and curious enough to pursue them and live it out. :) 

Love,
Candice