Saturday, November 26, 2016

See The Goodness

There's always some good to be found in every circumstance. 

I really believe this, even if not at the time something isn't going the way I wanted it to.

A few days ago, I shut my front door at home before I realised that I didn't have my keys with me. Yep. Locked out my own house with no one else at home, and a million things I wanted to do on my precious off day.

😩

Megan was in college in the city and Krispy worked nearby, but she wasn't replying and I wasn't sure where.

So I decided to go get my groceries as planned and wait for a reply.

No reply. I've got my groceries, and at this point, I really wanted to just go home, bake Bailey's birthday cupcakes, clean the house, do some reading and finish some way overdue paperwork.

So I decided to ask Megan where Krispy work, stalk her Facebook to make sure it's right, drive there and hopefully just ask for her at reception without embarrassing my housemate at her workplace.

Right after I reached, Krispy texted and yay of all yays, she's happy and free to pass me her keys. I met her at Gloria Jeans and turns out, she had just started her thirty minute break. With her house keys in my hand I thought.. "Oh, then I might as well catch up with you then!" Because I'd been on a trip recently and have been working rurally. I haven't had much chance to see my housemates these past few weeks.

And we ended up having a good heart to heart over coffee.

How blessed I was to have locked myself out that day. :)

I love this verse:
"You intended it for evil, but God intended it for good."
- Genesis 50:20

It's so easy to get a bad attitude in life when things don't go our way (and I know I'll have to eat these words again one day).
It's so easy to grumble and pout and rant and forget all the goodness we have in our lives when something gets thrown a little off balance, but as I've learnt.. there's always something good to come out of every circumstance, there's always a new lesson waiting to be learnt.

I've had sickness thrown my way unexpectedly before - but that taught me to place my trust in God, it taught me how vulnerable patients felt, it brought my family closer and reminded me how loved I was.

I've had my heart broken before - but that led me to where I am now, taught me not to let fear hold me back from life and to forgive,  gave me good memories nonetheless and helped me grow up in understanding life and people a bit better.

I've done badly on exams and disappointed others and myself before - but that challenged me deep in my spirit as to why I do what I do and reminded me that patients deserve better.

I've had my car broken into this year - but I pray my Bible and journal went to good use. I learnt to be more careful with my things, that there were people in my life who cared so much that they would care for me past midnight to help me sort things out, that God comforts even in the most painful circumstances and that once again, His peace is incredibly real.

I've found out that I've been cheated before - that my old car was a repaired write off that was sold to me for more than it was worth, but I encountered such lovely, compassionate people who tried their best to minimise my losses, and ended up disposing of a car that was probably not the safest to be on the road anymore anyways.

Crap happens. And it hurts, no doubt. 
But if you lean in close, look real hard, and wait just a moment longer sometimes, you'll see the goodness.
Trust me. 

It's there. It's always there, just waiting to be found.

"You make beautiful things, You make beautiful things out of us."
- Beautiful Things, Michael and Lisa Gungor

"He makes everything beautiful in its own time."
- Ecclesiastes 3:11

Thursday, November 24, 2016

A Little Kindness Goes A Long Way

I had been planning my trip to Canberra for a while now, and had decided that after work finished at 5pm, I would quickly go home, finish packing, shower, and then drive to the train station to catch a 630pm train that would reach Southern Cross at 8pm, leaving me plenty of time before my 10pm bus.

A fellow senior doctor at work (who I knew very briefly) overheard my plans, and in her Malaysian accent goes, "Are you crazy?? I'll drive you la! I'm heading that way anyways."

"Are you sure?"
"YES I'm sure."
"Well, thank you then! :D "

And then after I've gotten ready to leave after work she asks me what my plans were between now and my bus. And I said... "Eat, sit, read..?"

"That's it. You're coming and having dinner with me and my boyfriend."

Long story short, that night I had an incredibly nice spontaneous home-cooked meal with one of the most hospitable couples I have ever met. Despite the age difference and seniority in their careers too, they both welcomed me so generously, talked with me about life, shared their stories and listened to mine, and fed me delicious sausage curry as well.

And when it came time for me to start heading to Southern Cross, Michelle decides to start walking with me to the train station, taps on her myki and insisted then that the both of them would follow me to the bus stop at Southern Cross.

"Guys! I'll be fine!! I promise I'll be okay!"
"No. We have to answer to your mother to make sure you reach safely."
"You really don't have to!"

"Aww doesn't this feel like we're sending our child off to college?" 

....

A little kindness really does go a long, long way. 

The both of them really did not have to spend their precious Thursday evening with me but they decided to, and went far, far out of their way for my sake. I feel incredibly blessed, and moved to continue this journey of kindness, to pass it on and pay it forwards.

"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness - kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile."
- Mother Teresa