The Power of Our Testimony

"in a few hours i will find out if i got into monash or not. man this feel SO surreal. for so long i've wanted this, and was so certain even that this is the direction God's calling me to. now all doubts rush in at my shortcomings, my ability to get a spot. yet, like my results, maybe, just maybe, a God-breathed miracle awaits me. a part of me is afraid of not getting it (like DUH!) cause for so long i have put monash as where i thought i was meant to go to, but another part of me doesn't really care, cause i know that God's still in control, and that He will open the doors needed to take me where He wants me to go. so putting aside my pride, my possible errors in hearing His voice, now it's just all about the revelation, of where He wants me to go. UNSW or Monash? despite the anxiety and maybe even "induced" fear, there's an underlying peace within me now for i know that.. in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.- Romans 8:28. so i'm just keeping my fingers crossed, and waiting. :) in or not God, i will still praise You, and i will always love You. thank You Daddy King! :)

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after a year of anticipation and stress.....

I GOT IN! :)

praise the Lord for He is good and His mercy endures forever! :D i find myself once again in a place where i know, like REALLY KNOW, i could not have done this by my own strength. all glory goes to God! thank You Father Lord! :)"

- 12-13 January 2011

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"My biggest testimony from all of this really, is having the peace of God with me throughout everything. I knew those dear to me were very worried, which made me wonder if I should be too, if something was wrong with me for not being afraid of illness, or even death. Now I know though, it's all Papa God just being like.. totally cool and in control of everything.

I knew I had nothing to fear because there had already been multiple prophecies made over my life at different times and by different people all resounding the same message, that there is a future for me to live out my dreams for the glory of God, to share His love to the poor and the broken.

Again I say, that my greatest joy was having His hand to hold through everything, the good and the bad. We are blessed not because we have nothing to endure, but because He remains by our side in every situation. Time and time again, He would overwhelm me with His love and assure me that everything was going to be OK.

Oh and..

Coming back from the doctor today, I am happy to announce that my bloods are now within the normal range and that my biopsy was all clear too! :) Praise God!"

- 05 July 2013

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"Shortly after this photo was taken, I found out that my flight to Cairns had been pushed to 7am the next morning, which was an absolute disaster because my flight from PNG to Cairns was at 7am. I stood at the counter, flustered, anxious and despaired, thinking of the people I would be letting down who have prayed and financed my way there.

BUT, testimony taime! :) I thank God for an amazing Tiger Air counter person who searched out other options for me for probably 20 minutes. In this time I kept hearing God say, "Do you believe that I want you to go to PNG this time? Do you really think I would set you up to fail?"

Miracle of all miracles, he organised a transfer of my plane ticket to Brisbane and helped me purchase a ticket to Cairns from there. I'm sitting here at the Brisbane Airport awaiting to board now. 

God is so so good to me, ever faithful and a very present help in time of need! Just prior to this photo, I told Ron that a life of missions was so exciting, always having to rely on God for the next pay check. I didn't realize that extended to plane rides too. Still, I am so so thankful to see Him catch me just in time, and even give me a shorter stopover time through the night being homeless at the Cairns airport tonight. 

Lesson learnt: In times of chaos, do I still know who my God is? :) :) :)"

- 11 June 2014

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"Dr Izandis said to me, "I guarantee you, you would not get this experience with any other hospital, not even if you went to Sabah/Sarawak." And numerous other people have commented too that my timing for my elective placement here was absolutely perfect because it was not often that they did trips like this anymore. What a successful mission this was too, for we managed to evacuate two sick children with their parents to tertiary care, and see a lot of patients in different villages around Pos Gob.

You may have heard the story of how God impressed the word Gombak on my heart before I even knew about this hospital, and nudged me to come home for this period when I wanted to go abroad somewhere exotic to do my elective instead. I didn't really wanna come here for I thought it would lack the adventure of missions I craved so badly.

Looking back now I can truly say, God's instructions are always the very best and that His timing truly is perfect. The past few months, I keep hearing Him say to me cheekily, "I told you so. :)" God has been so, so good to me. Whatever comes next, the good and the bad, I am so excited and thankful to do it all with Him. Puji Tuhan!"
- 13 August 2015 

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How could I have ever thought that Papa God would not come through for me again?

Do it again Jesus. Come show off yet once more in my life. It's all You now. :)

Wholeness

"I actually attack the concept of happiness. The idea that - I don't mind people being happy - but the idea that everything we do is part of the pursuit of happiness seems to me a really dangerous idea and has led to a contemporary disease in our Western society, which is fear of sadness. 

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Wholeness is what we ought to be striving for and part of that is sadness, disappointment, frustration, failure; all of those things which make us who we are.

I would like just for a year to have a moratorium on the word "happiness" and to replace it with the word "wholeness". Ask yourself "Is this contributing to my wholeness?" and if you're having a bad day, it is."

- Hugh Mackay

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It's been a wholesome year for me. 

By no means was it only filled with the kind of bad days mentioned above, but it has definitely been a difficult journey nonetheless. Still, I must admit that I did have a large portion of sunshiny days as well.

This year has encompassed decent amounts of joy, sadness, hope, tears, laughter, family, heartache, precious moments, tiredness, love, promises come true, sickness, adventure and new challenges.

For this much, to have grown in the midst of all that, I am very grateful indeed.