Things haven't been the easiest lately.
Many thoughts.. many responsibilities, disappointments, fears, worries.. heaviness.
It's all part of growing up, I know, and in the midst of it all I hear Papa saying to me,
"Now is where you test and see that I really am enough for you. This is your training ground, and I am preparing you for bigger battles."
Bill Johnson once said that when his spirit was in despair, he would read the Psalms until he found one that resonated with his spirit.
...
Psalms 34 - A Psalm of David when he pretended madness before Abimelech, who drove him away, and he departed.
"I will bless the Lord at all times;
His praise shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul shall make its boast in the Lord.
The humble shall hear of it and be glad.
Oh, magnify the Lord with me,
And let us exalt His name together.
I sought the Lord, and He heard me,
And delivered me from all my fears.
They looked to Him and were radiant,
And their faces were not ashamed.
The poor man cried out, and the Lord heard him,
And saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the Lord encamps all around those who fear him,
And delivers them.
Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good;
Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
O, fear the Lord, you His saints!
There is no want to those who fear Him.
The young lions lack and suffer hunger;
But those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing.
Come, you children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
Who is the man who desires life,
And loves many days that he may see good?
Keep your tongue from evil,
And your lips from speaking deceit.
Depart from evil and do good,
Seek peace and pursue it.
The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous,
And His ears are open to their cry.
The face of the Lord is against those who do evil,
To cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.
The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears,
And delivers them out of all their troubles.
The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart,
And saves such as have a contrite spirit.
Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
But the Lord delivers him out of them all.
He guards all his bones;
Not one of them is broken.
Evil shall slay the wicked,
And those who hate the righteous shall be condemned.
The Lord redeems the soul of His servants,
And none of those who trust in Him shall be condemned."
Selah.
...
Tonight, in the midst of my thoughts, I felt Papa bring this song to my mind.
It's been blasting through my earphones on repeat for several times now. How truly grateful I am indeed, that where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.
I'm not sure what it is that compels me to write sometimes, but more often than not, I think I write for me. I write as a means of releasing the burdens on my shoulders, a scream into a blinded audience, a story to only those willing to listen.
"The light shines into the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it."
- John 1:5
"In His presence is fullness of joy."
- Psalm 16:11
"In this world you will have tribulation, but take heart, for I have overcome the world."
- John 16:33
I'll keep pushing back the dark. Just watch me.
Many thoughts.. many responsibilities, disappointments, fears, worries.. heaviness.
It's all part of growing up, I know, and in the midst of it all I hear Papa saying to me,
"Now is where you test and see that I really am enough for you. This is your training ground, and I am preparing you for bigger battles."
Bill Johnson once said that when his spirit was in despair, he would read the Psalms until he found one that resonated with his spirit.
...
Psalms 34 - A Psalm of David when he pretended madness before Abimelech, who drove him away, and he departed.
"I will bless the Lord at all times;
His praise shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul shall make its boast in the Lord.
The humble shall hear of it and be glad.
Oh, magnify the Lord with me,
And let us exalt His name together.
I sought the Lord, and He heard me,
And delivered me from all my fears.
They looked to Him and were radiant,
And their faces were not ashamed.
The poor man cried out, and the Lord heard him,
And saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the Lord encamps all around those who fear him,
And delivers them.
Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good;
Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
O, fear the Lord, you His saints!
There is no want to those who fear Him.
The young lions lack and suffer hunger;
But those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing.
Come, you children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
Who is the man who desires life,
And loves many days that he may see good?
Keep your tongue from evil,
And your lips from speaking deceit.
Depart from evil and do good,
Seek peace and pursue it.
The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous,
And His ears are open to their cry.
The face of the Lord is against those who do evil,
To cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.
The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears,
And delivers them out of all their troubles.
The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart,
And saves such as have a contrite spirit.
Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
But the Lord delivers him out of them all.
He guards all his bones;
Not one of them is broken.
Evil shall slay the wicked,
And those who hate the righteous shall be condemned.
The Lord redeems the soul of His servants,
And none of those who trust in Him shall be condemned."
Selah.
...
Tonight, in the midst of my thoughts, I felt Papa bring this song to my mind.
It's been blasting through my earphones on repeat for several times now. How truly grateful I am indeed, that where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.
I'm not sure what it is that compels me to write sometimes, but more often than not, I think I write for me. I write as a means of releasing the burdens on my shoulders, a scream into a blinded audience, a story to only those willing to listen.
"The light shines into the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it."
- John 1:5
"In His presence is fullness of joy."
- Psalm 16:11
"In this world you will have tribulation, but take heart, for I have overcome the world."
- John 16:33
I'll keep pushing back the dark. Just watch me.
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