The moment God said to me with pride, "And THIS, is what I created you for."
For me, that moment happened sometime ago in a secluded village in Papua New Guinea. Many days, I wish I was still there, where I know in my heart I am meant to be.. and yet, I find myself here. Crouched over my books trying and trying to stuff information in. It is so much more difficult than I ever expected and I cannot say that the idea of giving up has never crossed my mind before.
But.. I've had enough of my whining. I've had enough of thinking that I cannot do this. Enough is enough.
In this life, I think that I have been extremely blessed to have felt God's call even in my mid-teenage years. He sowed dreams in me, and set my heart ablaze for these people that I have never even met before. He sent people to prophesy great things over my life, and challenged me greatly along the way to build me up for that incredible future He's been whispering to me about.That reason alone should be sufficient to drive me harder and further into giving my best where I am now.
I'm not ready to be sent out now. I need to learn more, grow more, and become strengthened more through adversity. And so I write this, to remind myself, that greater things are at stake if I do not give more now in this season. My life was never meant to be about me, but for my future patients, mentees, friends.
"If you are sitting on your gift, you are jeopardizing someone else's future."
- The pastor in the Mighty Men video
I am strong. And like Papa said, I know that I will be victorious. :)
(The most unattractive picture of me in my PNG collection, one that got Pearly to very humorously respond "OMG. You should never show anyone that picture. I can't express how bad that is!" But, I like the quirkiness of it, for after all, it is a privilege to be completely myself and have a picture to remember it by. :) )
For me, that moment happened sometime ago in a secluded village in Papua New Guinea. Many days, I wish I was still there, where I know in my heart I am meant to be.. and yet, I find myself here. Crouched over my books trying and trying to stuff information in. It is so much more difficult than I ever expected and I cannot say that the idea of giving up has never crossed my mind before.
But.. I've had enough of my whining. I've had enough of thinking that I cannot do this. Enough is enough.
In this life, I think that I have been extremely blessed to have felt God's call even in my mid-teenage years. He sowed dreams in me, and set my heart ablaze for these people that I have never even met before. He sent people to prophesy great things over my life, and challenged me greatly along the way to build me up for that incredible future He's been whispering to me about.That reason alone should be sufficient to drive me harder and further into giving my best where I am now.
I'm not ready to be sent out now. I need to learn more, grow more, and become strengthened more through adversity. And so I write this, to remind myself, that greater things are at stake if I do not give more now in this season. My life was never meant to be about me, but for my future patients, mentees, friends.
"If you are sitting on your gift, you are jeopardizing someone else's future."
- The pastor in the Mighty Men video
I am strong. And like Papa said, I know that I will be victorious. :)
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