Today is New Year's Eve. How quickly time has gone by.
2012.. was my most difficult year by far, a phrase that the people close to me must have heard hundreds of times by now. It felt like the obstacles that challenged me deeply as a person rolled in one after another, threatening to crumble me unless I could use them to grow in character to greater heights.
This year I learnt a bit more about life, and death. I watched friends discover love and begin new stories with their partners. I got to get a glimpse of the life I had always wanted to lead in a secluded village somewhere in Papua New Guinea. I saw how far my dreams could carry me if I had the courage to chase after them. This year, I lived with the most amazing housemates ever and learnt more about friendship, life, God. I experienced how people from different circles of friends can come together to pray and seek God, and end up growing so close with the love of Christ surrounding them. I received new prophecies about the direction God wanted me to grow in, and the amazing future He has for me.
This year, I had to let go of some things that were holding me back from life and choose to keep looking forward expectantly.
This year, I have cried walking home alone and asked no few times why God had forsaken me.
But, this was also the year that I found joy in the little things, laughed without a care in the world, depended on the people around me for strength, felt His peace that could calm a raging storm and learnt faith, so much more faith. This was also the year that I began to truly believe in my dreams, and dream for even bigger things.
So while 2012 was undoubtedly the hardest one yet, it was also the most beautiful one yet.
Because there lies a beauty in brokenness, and an opportunity to be molded into someone tougher, who may be able to show others what life can be like with Jesus by your side, even in the worst of storms.
I am beyond thankful for the year You have given me Papa. :)
So, what lies in store for me next year? I don't know. But, one thing I do know is this, I have asked Him a few years in a row now, how the next year could possibly be better than this one, and every year since, He has not failed to amaze me with the kind of grace and heights He brings to my life.
Next year will be.. new. I will be on placements all year round in Frankston, a place which always felt like it had a bit of magic for me. :) I will have to encounter sick and dying patients every day, and study even harder to keep up. I will be learning to lead even more people in their walks in life, and with God. I will have to say goodbye to people that I have come to love so dearly.
Yet, as I look forward to the new year, I feel a small stirring in my spirit. I hear one word resounding - favour.
And for now, I'm gonna hang on to that, and simply keep believing.
With much love as always,
Dice
2012.. was my most difficult year by far, a phrase that the people close to me must have heard hundreds of times by now. It felt like the obstacles that challenged me deeply as a person rolled in one after another, threatening to crumble me unless I could use them to grow in character to greater heights.
This year I learnt a bit more about life, and death. I watched friends discover love and begin new stories with their partners. I got to get a glimpse of the life I had always wanted to lead in a secluded village somewhere in Papua New Guinea. I saw how far my dreams could carry me if I had the courage to chase after them. This year, I lived with the most amazing housemates ever and learnt more about friendship, life, God. I experienced how people from different circles of friends can come together to pray and seek God, and end up growing so close with the love of Christ surrounding them. I received new prophecies about the direction God wanted me to grow in, and the amazing future He has for me.
This year, I had to let go of some things that were holding me back from life and choose to keep looking forward expectantly.
This year, I have cried walking home alone and asked no few times why God had forsaken me.
But, this was also the year that I found joy in the little things, laughed without a care in the world, depended on the people around me for strength, felt His peace that could calm a raging storm and learnt faith, so much more faith. This was also the year that I began to truly believe in my dreams, and dream for even bigger things.
So while 2012 was undoubtedly the hardest one yet, it was also the most beautiful one yet.
Because there lies a beauty in brokenness, and an opportunity to be molded into someone tougher, who may be able to show others what life can be like with Jesus by your side, even in the worst of storms.
I am beyond thankful for the year You have given me Papa. :)
So, what lies in store for me next year? I don't know. But, one thing I do know is this, I have asked Him a few years in a row now, how the next year could possibly be better than this one, and every year since, He has not failed to amaze me with the kind of grace and heights He brings to my life.
Next year will be.. new. I will be on placements all year round in Frankston, a place which always felt like it had a bit of magic for me. :) I will have to encounter sick and dying patients every day, and study even harder to keep up. I will be learning to lead even more people in their walks in life, and with God. I will have to say goodbye to people that I have come to love so dearly.
Yet, as I look forward to the new year, I feel a small stirring in my spirit. I hear one word resounding - favour.
And for now, I'm gonna hang on to that, and simply keep believing.
With much love as always,
Dice
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