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:) today was the maths paper! haha after so many months of numberss, it's finally over with! i am so so happy about today's paper, not because i think i did superbly well or anything, but simply because of how God really showed to me that He was with me in that exam room. :) i face question number 8, and was asked to find the sample mean. it was a one mark question, but i just couldn't figure out how to do it. and a two mark question followed it. so it was three marks, that while i would be sad i lost, would not be life or death la. still, there's this horrible feeling i get when i have questions i don't know how to do in a maths paper. like during the spm add maths paper, i was so relieved to know i finished the paper, but everything changed when i realized i did the last one wrong la. still, that was an awful day la. but anyways!!! back to my story. so, no kidding, i was like praying already God please show me how to do this! and i felt/heard Him tell me AIYA(yes i heard the aiya too)just do the rest of the paper first and come back later. when you come back, you'll know how to do it. so i was like okayy.. and i finished it la, even the last question but i'll talk about that later. and i came back and had fifteen minutes more i think.. i tried and i tried but i just couldn't do it. i was so frustrated at myself and at the paper and just GAHH la. then the invigilator said five minutes more. wah i'd be so unpeaceful if i couldn't do that stupid question. and probably with four minutes left i was like AIYA, i'll just take the average of the two la! better than nothing, even if it's a stupid answer. finished everything with about two minutes left, and i checked my answer with my GC and PTLOMS, it was CORRECT! sigh... i was like thank you GOD!!!

He's been SO faithful to me, and i am just.. blown away man. Thank You so so much Jesus, whatever happens next i surrender it into Your hands! i'm just so grateful for this experience at all. :)

and the last question right, sigh, i don't know why i statrted doing it differently than i usually do these sorta questions. maybe it was my subconscious, but maybe... it was God nudging me yet again. :) halfway through i realized i've never done the question like this before, so i continued it at the empty page next to it and left my working there hanging. but i kept having this feeling that the work i did previously was right. yea after wasting time with working 2, i finally cancelled it and tried continuing the first one again. and somehow, THANK GOD, i managed to get an answer. yes by all means, i know it may not be the right answer, and if it's wrong, i don't really wanna know now either, but just the contentment that came with getting an answer was amazing. haha i've never had testimonies like that before (i think), of God's help in an exam, but i've definitely heard countless testimonies from many people before. :) :)

it's just amazing la. i feel so secure now, whatever the results, it's all in God's hands la. :)

i was pondering today on how stressful this exam has been on me, emotionally especially. yet just to experience God's presence and grace at such a time as this, it makes it so worth it. :) sigh.. :D

i can't wait for exam to be over tho! two more papers!!! HEEHEEEHEEEEEE!


heheh i miss beeing SOOO KRAZY. :D one more week to go!!!

looking for more,
candice :)