the rolling wind of uncertainty

so it's two down, three more to go! this exam period has been really really CHIU KAP STRESSFUL. just imagining results day is enough to make me... wanna jump off a bridge la. i think heaven's nicer. :) but the truth is, i really am just going by faith here. i think about how powerless i am and i go nuts. i think that i've never had to stretch my faith so far before, closing my eyes and letting God work. yesterday as i was panicking again, i switched on my ipod and listened to "How Great is our God". WAH. and once again, after so MANY countless times of assurance, i am reminded that God is great indeed. :) but i am also so grateful for all the people around me who have been encouraging me, helping me pull through and ensuring i do not really lose my mind. :) thank you! :D

I'M SO HUNGRYYY LAR!

oh and happy belated birthday to my tai ka che! :)


thanks for everything che! :) you've always been a role model for me, taking care of me all those times too. :D i remember you making me mummy's ginger chicken when i was hungry that time in australia! and how most days when i'm sitting here, i'll be greeted by "HELLO PRETTY!!!!!" when you come home from work. and the saturday morning walks we USED to go for. and all the friday night movies and shopping trips and car rides home from church. and all the kicking, pinching, screaming, teasing, looks. and every single other memory. :) thanks for always being there for me, you're the bestest and i love you A LOT! :D

and i also realized that it isn't easy to be a parent. i was watching a bit of this hokkien series my mum watchs, and it was something to do with the father working as a kuli to earn money or something like that la. and in rereading for one more day by mitch albom, which i personally find a really good book, all mitch albom books are incredible la actually(and NOT corny), i am reminded of this fact too. chick's mum worked as a maid to put him through college. i can't remember the details, but he was all why? and stuff la. so i think that especially us as teenagers, we don't see what our parents actually do for us. i mean it in the sense like, we don't know every sacrifice they make to give us the best live they can give, we don't know every moment they stood up for us, and in the midst of a small argument, we unearth all the little wrongs they make to feed our anger, to 'win'. in my english letter about teenagers, i wrote that adults should not point fingers to adolescents who have much to learn, but instead look to themselves to see first what they can do to be good role models (or something like that la-i don't wanna think too much bout eng, it was UGHH). and today it just occured to me, that 'not pointing fingers' is a two-way thing. if you want to be understood, you must first understand. which is just a random thought in my mind, you know, that before we blame our parents for everything that's wrong with our families, before we judge them for the mistakes they make, let us remember that they too are humans, and need to be loved and understood as well. :)

"Love like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive."
- Mitch Albom, the five people you meet in heaven

OOH I LOVE THIS.
"There is no such thing as 'too late' in life."
"Sticking with your family is what makes it a family."
"You can find something truly important in an ordinary minute."
- Mitch Albom

and you know what i think??? SAM students are the toughest students in the WORLD. okay maybe second to like ninja/shaolin students la. but really! if you make it through SAM, you can make it through ANYTHING. true story. :)

i was just thinking bout that first quote recently, that there is no such thing as too late. the time we spend mulling over how the marriage can no longer be saved, or the friendship can no longer persevere, is time we should instead spend making things right. :) wah imagine a world, where everyone knew that it's never 'too late' and actually did something about it. that'd be crazy in a good way man. :P

also, i can't believe gerard butler's the phantom in the phantom of the opera! looks so different. but the songs are really good! he sings so emotionally, me and my sister we like WAHHH. hahhaha, man i really wanna go watch a live musical one day! :) that's be cool. :D

MMMM I SMELL err.. YUMMINESS!! dinner calls. bye! study hard! :)

love,
candice