in search of joy

i spent my new year's countdown at thanksgiving night in church yesterday, and despite all my feelings of fear and anxiety for the new year, i felt an utmost excitement for 2011. it's gonna be an entirely new experience, away from all that is familiar to me. but i actually miss this, standing at the edge with nothing to go on but faith. where i have to trust God fully to lead me this year, through all the pain, lessons, joy and experience. so it's exciting too, in the sense that i know God's got a plan for me, greater than i imagined. :) so this year, i wanna be happy, i wanna take risks, i wanna make new friends, and soak up life in the unfamiliar. but above all Lord, let this be Your year. :)

in a devotional i read lately, it said something about having to let go of what i'm holding on too tightly to move forward. and so yea.. i think to some extent, that's what i'm gonna do. to enter the new year.. free, without giving up hope. :)

anyways, this song was in my head this morning. :) here it is!

Leaving on a Jet Plane by John Denver
All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go


have a happy new year! :D

full of hope,
candice