God has a plan

how often do we forget that huh? when the unexpected happens and when bad times overpower your strength to move forward.

life's like a river and guess what? we are fish! it's a rather silly analogy but so is most of the stuff i say. it ebbs and flows and even though we each take different routes eventually, we gotta realize that all waters are connected. and likewise, all lives are connected. maybe you meet anothe fish and fist bump them for just a bit, and then you gotta part. well hey, at least it was an amazing fist bump! or fin bump, whatever. =) i really miss annabella diong. we used to have these heart to hearts out of nowhere and i'm like an overflowing jug now, got no one to tell it to and no one to respond the way she does. gah. and i miss ivan chong too. i remember that he was the first one to see my SPM result slip for me when i was gonna cry already. haha, too much pressure le. and he exclaimed,"candice it's okay!! can get full scholarship! why you crying??" sigh, friends are pretty awesome huh? i love how pris always says, "with friends who needs money?" haha it's cause i always don't bring enough money to coll and end up being in debt to the nicest debt collectors ever. hahha. but the way life moves, and doesn't turn back, it's nearly terrifying. like today i was telling mich, hey, i can't believe we handed in our investigative study already. seems like just yesterday we were talking about it and saying, gosh 2000 words, how to do?? and now, it's off our shoulders. and you know, it's all about moving forward then i guess. and giving the past an ocassional glance to remember the good times and then looking forward with faith and confidence. and us fish, we'll make it to the sea where we meet again, someday.

thank You God, for helping me in today's Bio test even though i didn't really deserve it.
thank You for the cows by the river again this morning.
thank You for a crazy schedule tomoro, and the faith to believe You'll pull me through.
thank You for friends who laugh and scream and cry and eat under the library cctv together.
thank You for the lessons You are teaching me over and over again.
and thank You, for loving me enough to give me things in life to be thankful for.

well yea, i just really felt like blogging so words are just coming out while i type. haha.

"Not everyone can be a great artist, but a great artist can come from anywhere. *some other really nice sounding stuff here*" - Ego, in Ratatouille

oh yea! i remembered what i wanted to type now. it's so sad how all good things must come to an end. like my beautiful sunflower has reached the end of her life. let's call her Maggie shall we? Maggie's reached the end of her life! so she was becoming all dry and sad, so i couldn't stand seeing a sunflower like that right, so i plucked off the petals. still yellow and pretty ma. dried will be like yellow potpourri right? WRONG! anyways, i put the brown center thingy (did u know it's sticky in the center???) in the garden, mum say can wor then it'll dry and konon can get seed la, and the petals in the jar mandy gave me for Christmas. so i still happyish la.. then today i looked in the jar and it had some black dots here and there and fuzzy stuff in other places, not a lot la but very geli!!! sigh, mummy says it's fungus. have to throw away! gah. sunflowers are so pretty but they just don't last outside the soil. gah. and now mum says better be careful with my dried rose, after got worms how wor.. gah. tis' so sad!!!!!!! well i at least i got one petal that i put in my drawer and checked, it still looks okay... so shud be okay la, when got furry things on it, you'll hear me scream from real far away so you'll know too!
it's sad tho, i've gotten flowers from my sister before too, for paroimia, these gorgeous african daisies! so i tried to keep also, but they have that big center thing too. so one i tried to kiap in dictionary and another i hung upside down, like what u supposed to do for roses la right. aijor, so silly of me! the one i kiap-ed in dictionary - GOT ANTS! screamed so loud man! i hate hate hate ants. sigh, and the one i hung upside down pulak, the center thing got fuzzy and started flying everywhere. needless to say, had to throw that away too. so i'm like... gah.

there are leopard spots on my pillow that look like bacterial plasmids. haha too much bio intake!

and once again i found inspiration in my own words.
- don't focus on what you can't do but on what you can. don't focus on what you don't have but on what you do have.

well, i guess that's all for now! kinda looking forward to/dreading the tiredness-better sleep early, of tomoro! it's MADU then post musical party and the agc meeting for me. phew! and gotta study for midterms too, cannot play play anymore.



i cannot believe it's may already!

till next time,
candice! =)