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have you ever felt like you weren't good enough?
like no matter how hard you try, you or others just cannot be satisfied?
have you ever felt so exhausted of living, of always trying to do the right thing?
ever looked at the phone wondering who to call and talk to but not know who and then just give up and do something else?
ever felt like you failed God and others too many times?
ever wondered what your purpose in life was, your purpose where you are?
ever wanted to be someone else?
and yet knew with all your heart that life can be amazing?

well, you're not alone.
and this is a reminder that i'm not alone either. =)
we'll make it through life together! =)

yea, i just felt like typing that.. i guess maybe, when all those bad feelings come, whatchu gotta do, is remember the good things in life, remember the last thing that made you smile, keep your chin up, keep hoping, loving, praying, and just stomp the devil out of your life. i like this story from paulo coelho's book- like a flowing river:

"In Madrid lives Norma, a very special Brazilian lady. The Spanish call her 'the rocking grandma'. She is over sixty and works in various places, organizing promotions, parties and concerts.
Once, at about four in the morning, when i was so tired i could barely stand, i asked Norma where she got all her energy from.
'I have a magic calendar. If you like, i can show it to you.'
The following day, i went to her house. She picked up an old, much scribbled-upon calendar.
'Right, today is the day they discovered vaccine against polio,' she said. 'We must celebrate that, because life is beautiful.'
On each day of the year, Norma had written down something good that had happened on that date, For her, life was always a reason to be happy."

like =D =D right! =) i think i wanna do that too, soon! =P gots a busy schedule up ahead all the way till like mid june.. but being busy with good stuff's a reason to thank God too. =) and i should be studying maths now, last paper!!!! oh and life's beautiful cause tomorrow's finally THURSDAY!!!! =D but i just gotta say...

thanks so much God! God's really been there for me through every paper this time, and every time i fell asleep studying, cause i tend to laze alot, which is bad, but haihz bad habit, but anyways, like, twice, for my bio paper and chem paper, i fell asleep before i studied much and went to school kinda very empty handed, but paper's at 11.30, and in those few hours i managed to study everything. PRAISE GOD RIGHT! really He's so awesome la! thanks God! =)

miracles do happen. =)

p.s: ever felt like the world was really small? well on a shallower note, like a lot of my new friends in college is somebody else's friend, like nearly all my friends are my friend's friend. geddit? hahha, nvm. but what i mean, on a deeper level is, have you ever had a song stuck in your head then while you were blog hopping found it there, in a stranger's blog, stuck in their head too? or identified with someone you weren't very close to from just a few words? or really just realized how similar you are to a stranger halfway across the world? or think that right now, someone else is doing the same thing you're doing? and that right now, someone's probably thinking about you too? =D
haha, with that in mind, have a good day moro! =)

with lots of love, like really, even though mosquitoes are draining my blood,
with LOTS of LOVE,
candice =)