the dreamer

that's what i hear a lot, that my intentions were good, but it just can't work out. and i guess i'm trying to say that the real world's tougher than i thought. i figured this out in planning our sales and stuff, and if you've read my blog before, you'd know i learn big lessons from small things. and i think in life, when you want things done, you really gotta work for it and make it happen. i feel like i just got off my training wheels, taking more risks, learning more along the way. and it's scary, trying to cycle without falling, but hey, it scares me only because it's worth doing. in taking risks, in making tough choices, there will always be voices that surround you, voices that discourage, that irritate, that may unintentionally make you want to give up. maybe courage, is simply about drowning the other voices, the ones that say "it can't be done, you're not good enough", and listening to your own voice, to God's voice and believing that if the dream is big enough then the facts don't matter. and if it's meant to be it'll work out eventually.

but this leads me to, do some dreams have to be given up on? like in glee, when artie(who is paralysed waised down i think, in case you didn't know) had to give up on his dreams of becoming a dancer. this is such a scary thought, and this is why it's so difficult to hope. because if they do get crushed, it's gonna hurt so bad. the higher the dream, the harder the fall. so i believe it takes a lot of courage to even dare to dream. because inevitably, sometimes you will realize not all dreams come true. but take hope in knowing that the future hasn't happened yet, and things still can happen. Murphy's Law is this - "If anything bad can happen, it probably will." but as there are two sides to every story, if anything good can happen, it probably will if you make it happen. (and i totally know that i speak in circles a lot). and as terrifying and hopeless as life can be sometimes, don't run away, stand up, fight back and remember, it's gonna be worth it.

tomorrow we start our booth sales. yippe hoo!!! :D and i watched Dear John with my sister just now, i thought it was pretty good! :D

anyways, i gotta run, love always,
me :)