before the sunrise

ever reached a point where you realized you made an unconcious decision a while back that kinda formed your future from then(past from now)? like that one decision, if decided differently, might lead to a different future? haha life's funny that way huh? you can't rewind, and rewinding would be too much of a hassle in a way. it's good to move on and forget regrets but it's also nearly inevitable to turn around and wonder, what if?

gah, people who don't really listen to my(or even others) opinions and are so insistent on being right frustrate me. which reminds me never to become someone who would frustrate me.

hope comes from unexpected places, little gifts from God to remind you that He cares about you and so do others. so, hope's on it's way. don't lose your faith, even if holding on is the toughest thing you can do right now.

Quotes to ponder

"Do not let your fire go out, sparked by irreplaceable spark. And the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish. And lonely frustration for the life you deserved but never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. And it is yours." - Ayn Rand

"The courage of life is a magnificent mixture of triumph and tragedy. A man does what he must in spite of personal consequences, in spite of obstacles and dangers and pressures." - John.F Kennedy

"God cannot give us a happiness and peace apart from Himself, because it is not there. There is no such thing." - C.S Lewis

"Miracles are a retelling in small letters of the very same story which is written across the whole world in letters too large for some of us to see." - C.S Lewis

oh and it's 12 midnight now, i got to talk to dely for a while thru gmail!!! she's one of the refugee kids i was blessed to know, but she and her family were resettled in america. i am so happy i got to connect with her again, even if our conversation was just how are yous and God bless yous. :) i'm happy now! but my moods are swinging higher than tarzan la! gah.

in conclusion, life is good. always was, still is, and forevermore will be, despite the odds. :)


learning,
candice